Friday, August 5, 2011

My Last Week :-(

I have been dreading having to go back to work since the day after Eli was born...literally.  The day after Eli was born I laid in bed and cried and cried.  Mark kept asking "What is wrong?"...I really was not sure exactly why I was bawling my eyes out (can you say hormones?) and all I could think was that I never wanted to leave this little boy...EVER!  Mark laughed and tried to comfort me by saying "You have 9 weeks before you have to think about that!"  I knew that the 9 weeks were going to go WAY TOO fast and they did.

The week before we left for Missouri, Eli and I went to childcare orientation.  We met his childcare teacher and stayed for a while just talking.  Everything seemed pretty good but the longer I stayed the more I began to realize that I was going to be leaving my baby.  As soon as we got into the car I broke down in tears for the entire ride home.  That was 3 weeks ago and I feel no different about the situation.  This is my last week at home with Eli and every morning I realize I am one more day closer to leaving him for work.  I am pretty sure that next week will be a VERY emotional week for me.  I just pray that he enjoys daycare and that I am able to stop crying.

I have been pretty nervous about being able to get up and out the door in decent time.  So this morning I woke up at 5:10am, took a shower, got dressed and then woke Eli up to get him dressed and ready.  I was able to nurse him right before I left and I arrived at the daycare center on base at about 6:45am.  This will work good so that I will be at work by 7am.  Eli and I spent about 3 hours at the daycare center.  The women there were very nice and very good with the babies.  I know Eli will be in good hands but that does not make it any easier.  I still sat at the daycare and cried just thinking of leaving him there for a whole day.  The women there kept telling me that he will be ok and that it will be hard for me but that it will get easier.  I hope so.

To make it an even more emotional day, today was Eli's 2 month doctor's appointment.  And along with his 2 month appointment came his first vaccinations.  I held his little hands and tried to comfort  him as tears rolled down both our cheeks while he was given his shots.  I hated to see him cry in pain like that but the crying did not last long.  Eli is now 23" long and 10 lb 4 oz.  He is in the 50% for his height and 25% for his weight.  The doctor told me that everything looked good and that he was perfect!

Please pray that I will be able to make it through my first week at work.  I am going to miss this little boy like CrAzy!


  1. He is so BEAUTIFUL!! I know it is going to be hard to leave him & I am so Thankful you will be right around the corner and can go visit him during the day for his Mommy kisses. Love you 3!

  2. Aww!! Praying for you!! It will be a rough week but he will do great and you will be okay too!! I am home 3 days a week and if Eli ever needs anything I am happy to be his back-up Mommy and help you out!!