I have been dreading having to go back to work since the day after Eli was born...literally. The day after Eli was born I laid in bed and cried and cried. Mark kept asking "What is wrong?"...I really was not sure exactly why I was bawling my eyes out (can you say hormones?) and all I could think was that I never wanted to leave this little boy...EVER! Mark laughed and tried to comfort me by saying "You have 9 weeks before you have to think about that!" I knew that the 9 weeks were going to go WAY TOO fast and they did.
The week before we left for Missouri, Eli and I went to childcare orientation. We met his childcare teacher and stayed for a while just talking. Everything seemed pretty good but the longer I stayed the more I began to realize that I was going to be leaving my baby. As soon as we got into the car I broke down in tears for the entire ride home. That was 3 weeks ago and I feel no different about the situation. This is my last week at home with Eli and every morning I realize I am one more day closer to leaving him for work. I am pretty sure that next week will be a VERY emotional week for me. I just pray that he enjoys daycare and that I am able to stop crying.
I have been pretty nervous about being able to get up and out the door in decent time. So this morning I woke up at 5:10am, took a shower, got dressed and then woke Eli up to get him dressed and ready. I was able to nurse him right before I left and I arrived at the daycare center on base at about 6:45am. This will work good so that I will be at work by 7am. Eli and I spent about 3 hours at the daycare center. The women there were very nice and very good with the babies. I know Eli will be in good hands but that does not make it any easier. I still sat at the daycare and cried just thinking of leaving him there for a whole day. The women there kept telling me that he will be ok and that it will be hard for me but that it will get easier. I hope so.
To make it an even more emotional day, today was Eli's 2 month doctor's appointment. And along with his 2 month appointment came his first vaccinations. I held his little hands and tried to comfort him as tears rolled down both our cheeks while he was given his shots. I hated to see him cry in pain like that but the crying did not last long. Eli is now 23" long and 10 lb 4 oz. He is in the 50% for his height and 25% for his weight. The doctor told me that everything looked good and that he was perfect!
Please pray that I will be able to make it through my first week at work. I am going to miss this little boy like CrAzy!